As I continue this journey of readings and spirituality. It hasn’t failed me…yet. I think I’ll forever enjoy the feelings and affirmation these cards give me. Today was no exception for the card of the week.
Eight of Wands
The card of the week is Eight of Wands: Potential, Faith, Flow
It’s asking time to let this week flow. The potential positive energy is coming and to have faith in letting things take control. Good things are coming. There’s small or big signs showing this. The potential is endless. I need to focus on what I want and go for it.
This card is a first for me since I’m yet to see it be drawn for myself. I understand what I want and what my deck has to tell me. The mutual trust and communication is alive and well.
Anyone else read tarots for themselves only when first starting out? I’m still hoping to start doing readings for others soon. To sharpen my skills and intuition. Feel free reach out with any questions. I’ll post later this week my setup and explanation on what I feel/sense when it comes to myself. I’m learning and researching so I’m fairly new to all this. Thank you for understanding and reading my content. Stay sweet everyone!
I’m starting a short story series inspired by dreams I have hadin the past. A lot of it consist of assumptions of the way the dreams were carried. Stories are vague since there’s no true beginning or end. Some characters have no name and barely any dialogue. Also some of these stories are meant for an older audience since sexual situations are depicted. I’ll rate them as I go. Here’s part 2! Enjoy
I woke up in my bed. My mother caressing my hair. “Are you alright!?” I tried to explain that I saw something outside. Dad looked out the window. He sees nothing. Whatever it was. It was gone and I was trembling. Had I imagined it? I wanted to get out. I felt this sense of not belonging. My mother told me I was probably tired from the many nights of being awake and hardly any sleep. I bit my cheek and did feel tired from the ordeal. I drifted off to sleep. Was I even safe to dream?
Morning came. It was quiet. No birds chirping. Just the sounds of my parents murmuring. Coffee brewing. A knock on the door. My name being called and the shock of seeing a guy standing the middle of the living room. He hardly looked at me and gazed out the window. My parents introduced him and said they had been partnering with him for a while now. He would be working in the library for a few days and if I could keep him company while they went about their research that he was assisting them on. When I asked his name you could hardly hear his voice. But I nodded and took in his overall appearance. His hair dark as a raven’s wing barely covering his eyes. His eyes darker than the coffee he was sipping on. Skin was a cream color as if it hadn’t seen sun in a while. His facial hair was well kept and made him appear older. He was cold, distant, as if his whole world had crumbled in a past life from the gaze of his eyes. He stood taller than I was and his physique was lean but looked like he worked out at some point. Perhaps he stopped? Why was he so cold? The day carried on with his silence. He watched us. He sighed under his breath with dad’s failed jokes and sipped on more coffee while picking around the food. He would eat half and seemed to get lost in his thoughts. A place no one else could reach.
The library had more journals. Perhaps I picked up the last of it. The man in the book was vague and spoke of protective spells, defense against spirits and darkness. It was strange to think it was fiction or perhaps this man had gone insane on his own. Was the same thing happening to me in this place?
“What are reading?”
I sucked in a breath. The voice was so strange and deep with some kind of pain that I could barely reply. He stood at the doorway. Arms crossed and his footsteps were slow coming to me. I felt my heart quicken as he went to take the journal from me and there was a jolt. He shot a look of shock. It was the first emotion I had seen in him all day. He relaxed and took the book again. “I’m not going to hurt you.” He opened the journal and began to read curiously. I took another journal and started reading. He never said a word. So I didn’t either. We sat in the library til the sun came up. I felt myself drifting and I finally fell asleep. I woke up with a blanket. He was drinking coffee and looking at another journal. He took one good look at me and he wanted to say something. But he refused and continued reading. A few days would go by. I learned the names of different spells out of curiosity. The man in the journals had a wife that left him after having their son cause his “crazy delusions”. He claimed to want to protect his family and that the darkness spreading was too evil. The sadness could of caused his madness to worsen over time. And we were reading the aftermath of it all.
I would catch glimpses of him reading and whenever he spoke to my parents. It was nice to see them together as they treated him as their own. They mentioned he didn’t have family or anyone else around. To be nice since they’ve been working with him for a while to figure out a phenomenon happening in town. At times he would glance at me and even though I smiled he would look away. I never felt as though I liked anyone but something about this man and stoic personality. I couldn’t pinpoint it. I wanted to know more about him and his past. His interests and yet here I was gazing at him at a lost with words. A part of me couldn’t resist and I finally balled up the courage to ask.
“What happened to you…?”
The question was so sudden. He blinked a couple of times and I could see his body tense. It had been over a week of us studying the journals and barely saying a word to each other. He sighed and said “You wouldn’t believe me if I told you…don’t ask me that again”
I bit my lip as I hung my head in defeat and decided to get a snack out of frustration. I sat in the recliner and sighed. How could I like someone who barely speaks or acknowledges my existence? He’d probably think I was crazy anyway.
Tap…tap…tap.
That sound….
Tap…Tap…TAP
I froze. Was it behind me? I slowly turned to the window. A pale hand. Through the sheer curtains. I could see it. A face was coming up. My throat went dry. I felt a pull. A silence around me. As I started walking towards the window. My heart felt as though it could burst with fear. It had no eyes. An emptiness. Why was I walking towards it? The shriek slowly building in my head. I wanted to run. Everything was telling me to run. Why can’t I run?
For the first day of the month I decided to do a monthly ready to get an overall picture of my energy and life. I live with this self doubt I can never shake off. Ever since I started doing reading. I feel the energy come back and the will to push toward comes back quickly. I’m constantly reminding myself that I’m enough and can do this. I hope everyone reading this knows they’re enough and never let anything feel like you’re a failure. We learn from those and push forward. Without further ado here’s the tarot spread I use and the reading that came forth.
Tarot Spread Used
There’s a lot to take in here. The cards drawn were: Nine of Wands,Five of Wands, Nine of Cups, The Lovers, Seeker of Cups, Sovereign of Swords, Ace of Wands, The Hierophant.
There is a lot going on here and it’s nothing new for me personally.
Overall Theme: Nine of Wands is a card that’s been attracted to me lately. The deck no matter how many times I shuffle and mix it. This card makes its appearance as reminder of the things I’ve endured. I don’t think I’ve endured much but this reminds me that I have and of my resilience which is the theme for this reading.
What are we leaving behind?: Five of Wands comes through meaning frustration and conflict. After the last few years I’ve had. I believe this card is perfect.
What are we continuing?: with the nine of cups it signals the continuation of gratitude and celebration. Attracting joyous energy and the celebrate the good that’s happened and being grateful of what’s to come.
What is Entering our Life?: The Lovers is a card with a lot of positivity. As a mother of two and married. The bliss that I feel with my partner is amazing right now. Of course we have our highs and we have our lows. But things have been harmonious and beautiful. And if this card is showing that. Bless the spirits for letting it continue.
What is to Come?
Career: Seeker of Cups is interesting since it’s a creative card that asks me to seek and ask questions. To be curious, intuitive and inspired. Funny enough it was brought to my attention to have more tasks and responsibilities at work. I’m going to be trained for a different skill set in order to be of more help. This will eventually and hopefully create a place where I can progress and grow. To put my mind to something and utilize this energy to do my job efficiently.
Relationships: I take this as a general overview of my relationships anywhere and again with the Sovereign of Swords. It’s rather spot on. Most of the people I keep close are people who I can be truthful with and provided advice for in the past. I enjoy being a source of wisdom and being a reliable person to share my intellect with others.
Overall Advice: The Hierophant brings along tradition and values. I’m going to guess this means to absorb what I’m being taught. To retain the knowledge and guidance being given to me at the moment.
Phew! What a reading. Even though it’s for myself. I find myself so intrigued every single time. I will go back to one or two draws and continue to do this weekly. If anyone is looking for a reading. Please feel free to reach out. Much love and stay sweet.
This week I’ve added the rose gold oracle deck in my reading. Just purchased and received this one recently from Threads of Fate. I wanted to connect with it personally first. I also purchased another altar cloth from a cute Etsy shop. It’s absolutely beautiful and big enough to fit both decks for this 1 card draw readings. Let’s find out how this week is looking.
Justice and Power
Justice (Tarot): What an interesting draw. Justice signifies truth, law and fairness. Karmic justice will be coming this week. This is a neutral card in which I connect with. Some wrongs in my life I avoided and didn’t wish to dwell in during that time. I became radio silent after. I don’t seek the people who wronged me. I only try to wish people the best. I truly believe putting good energy out into the world can be rewarding when finding the right people to share it with. Protect your energy sweeties. Not everyone wishes the best to those of us doing well.
Power(Oracle): I drew from this deck to seek wisdom for the week. This is perhaps a reminder that I’m more powerful than I realize. To draw in my inner strength without fear. I would be lying to myself if I didn’t say drawing this card erased the last bit of self doubt I had within.
Justice and Power. Two rather powerful drawings to start the week. Today I begin a new term in school. The stress of everything has made me currently sick with a slight fever and thought maybe my energy wouldn’t sit right with me today. However, I felt the need to erase that doubt and try anyway. I’m bring more content soon. Trying to put together some things now that school is easing up a little. Blogging brings me a sense of joy so I would like to continue. Stay sweet everyone.
I do admit I’m learning to not be a procrastinator since it’s stressful as the weekends approach. Each week the same dance happens where college term comes and I’m handing things in late and continue to put things in the back burner. Only to stress and rush to focus for hours til I’m burned out and on my wits end. During the week I work part time and have my boys. I worry about every little thing. What to cook, what to clean, where to start, doing the tasks asked of me along with much more. Lately I find myself stopping to take a breath. Worrying about the amount of stress I endure and experience.
Will this be forever? Maybe. But I want to find a way to endure while also finding peace. I’ve learned to take naps when I can. Attempt one to two tasks a day and keep a rhythm. This has so far been helpful. The stress although fairly high doesn’t not put me in a state of shutting down and full on panic anymore. I’ve questioned my mental health and slowly have returned to having moments of self care. These moments I get to love myself and be selfish for 5 minutes. The burn out lasts so long. Monday comes again with the linger of anxiety for the week. Relief of being able to accomplish some tasks. Grateful to have made it through a weekend.
I’m learning.
One day at a time. I’ll make it through. Motherhood isn’t easy but it’s special in its own way. A journey of never ending wonder and surprises. Always learning and permanently tired.
I wanted to start weekly tarot drawings for myself for the start of the week and the outlook of that week. Eventually, I would like this to be done for others and keep them anonymous in order to send them good vibes and guidance.
Hopefully I can keep this up on Mondays. Life recently has been a mess and I’m learning to take it a day at a time.
For this weeks draw I got: The Fool.
The Fool Arcana with current setup
This is an interesting card that doesn’t seem to let go of me. I shuffle the cards in such a way that I would expect to receive a somewhat different card. But, being a spiritual person and since I’m the one choosing from the deck. It tends to lead me to this card.
The Fool is Honest, Genuine and Curious. Representing the beginning of a journey I am on. A long road with ups and downs to come. This is usually a positive and motivational card. One that tells me that I should jump into the new opportunities without fear nor doubt. I have nothing to lose in this journey within myself.
What a way to start the week and a new blog talking about it. This card has followed me throughout many personal readings. Sounds like I’m on an never ending journey and on adventures that come with many challenges. Looking back on this past year and what’s to come. I can agree and I’m both excited and nervous to endure it.
Here’s to a Happy Monday and for what lies ahead this week. I will do my best to keep this as a series in my blog. I am new to this and an amateur. But I hope to mature this side of me with time. Anyone else into tarot readings or have done a reading? Do tell about it as I love hearing others experience with it. Stay sweet everyone!
I recently got into tarot reading one day. Not sure exactly, you know those Facebook Ads that creepily come up and you tell yourself “yeah they’re listening.” It was probably one of those. I came across an ad for Threads of Fate. I fell in love with their card designs, the aesthetics, and their belief of finding our own individuality as spiritual people. Then there I was purchasing not one but two of their decks. No regrets. I highly recommend their decks with how gorgeous they are. I feel connected with my decks and it’s funny cause when I did introduce myself to my decks they sassed me. How could they!?
First of all, the decks are gorgeous. I was able to get their Tarot Journeyer and Oracle Lumen. Still debating the rose edition for collector’s sake. I’ve mostly used them to read myself or any residual energy from my dreams. The accuracy has been unreal and yet comforting to say the least. I was happy to be able to do a reading for a friend who had passed and was able to do a spirit guide spread and it was accurate for them too. It was emotional and exciting all at once.
The excitement I feel when reading buzzes throughout my whole being. I feel a tug in my soul and this vibration that relaxes me. Although I am completely new to this and not sure what any of this supposed to be like. I hope to be able to read for others one day. But for now, I’ll keep the cards close and personal until I’m ready. I have uploaded my somewhat set up so far on my tik tok. Doesn’t do the deck’s beauty any justice. Enjoy!
Have you been to a tarot reading before? How was it? Did you feel anything? Comment below your experience. Stay sweet lovelies.
There’s simply not enough time in a day for everything. I’ve always cycled hobbies and things I learn or want to learn. Once I find something I like. I research and try my best to find out everything about it before diving in. Even when I do, there’s a chance I’ll lose interest. Whether it be lack of time or the way my brain is wired (more on this later). Hobbies or at least some can be cycled whether it be by seasons, mood, or life style changes. After becoming a mother, this is exceptionally true. I didn’t lose interest but I had less time. Work? School? Well things get complicated.
I’ll be honest. For some things my time management is on point. Especially if it has nothing to do with myself (Ha!). I do tend to procrastinate when it comes to myself personally, it’s a struggle. Constant cycle of when should I do this? When should I do that? I have an appointment tomorrow? Since when?
I’ve officially become that person. The calendar person. Where I use google calendar to input my work meetings, family related events, doctor appointments or reminders. Without them I would be a complete mess of a person. Causing more stress than I already have. I try my best to squeeze in hobbies that make me happy. Watching anime, playing video games with friends, reading, writing, and even blogging. I wish I could be more active on this. Time escapes so easily when you’re busy.
Hobbies are a form of self love and a way to de stress. But it can also take away from priorities which makes it such a struggle to balance. One day this won’t be so overwhelming for me. That’s what I keep telling myself. That life is an ocean, do we prepare for a storm or will it be a wonderful day? It’s unpredictable.
One day it’ll get better. Just maybe not tomorrow?
Life is constantly moving. It’s always changing and you start to wonder how different things are every time you dwell in the past. As someone who overthinks things and puts herself down. I want to take a moment to celebrate some life accomplishments/updates that I feel proud or happy about:
•Got my license •First car purchase •GPA went up •Induced into The National Society of Leadership and Success •Keeping appointments both for physical and mental health upkeep •6 months breastfeeding •Managed to not gain more than 3 pounds •Became an aunt to an adorable little boy •Continuing my school education regardless of the obstacles I face •Practicing tarot card reading
Some of this was not easy. Sometimes even the strongest can fall but it’s important to get back up again. I strive for something when I think of my future and my family. But I always try to remind myself to slow down and be happy. To thank my loved ones for their support. At times this is scary. As a mother and a wife, there’s so much to worry about that it’s easy to forget about myself in many ways. Self care, eating healthy, finding time for things I love, while also continuing what I set out to do. Most of all achieving happiness and finding joy in all the small things.
I hope to continue these updates and blogs. I might just post random things. I want to post about anime, cars, school and motherhood struggles. Or whatever I feel like in the moment. But I’ll stick to whatever works.
What makes you happy? Comment below. Follow me on my social links below and stay sweet everyone.
It’s hard trying to be better for yourself. To create these habits to build yourself up. Tell that voice in your heard to stop being so negative and breathe a moment. I’m still on a journey. A journey where I find myself wondering where life will go and trying to experience things as they come to me.
These frequent breaks are necessary but doesn’t mean I come back bigger or better. I try to be stronger and sometimes it’s difficult doing it. But I strive for a better tomorrow. Cherish the day and keep pushing more than yesterday. I hope I want to be kinder to myself moving forward.
If you’re reading this take it as a sign. Be kinder to yourself too. I’ll update more soon sweeties. Much love.
Sirua's Serenity 